Shower Problems: A Careful Misapplication of Attachment Theory

Lately, in my emerging role as a wildly successful writer and editor and lion tamer (I’ll let you decide which parts of that are true), I’ve been working with a publisher focusing on early childhood education and theories (hint: it’s not the sort of publisher that tames lions… One of the other kinds). It’s been fascinating work, mostly because I am an obsessive learner who has never delved into the world of theories about childhood. Did you know that there’s a whole group of people who talk not just about what kids learn, but how, and why, and the way they grow? I didn’t. Well, now I do. Most of them are some sort of psychologist or sociologist or researcher, and it’s given me a whole new way to look at kids and their growth.

(Sidenote: If you think about it, the fact that children can be born as essentially a pile of mush, brain-wise, that efficiently reorganizes itself from scratch based on the world around them is impressive. On a growth curve from 0-20 years, you have an increasingly higher-functioning individual that, when it started, had only one tool in its toolbox (variations of crying) to deal with its essentially single need (staying alive). Of course this is a simplification, but it’s pretty stunning nonetheless.)

Anyway, one of the brand-new theories that I’ve learned about is attachment theory. Today, untrained and untested, we will be misapplying this theory to my shower. Yes, my shower. I intend for this to at least be therapeutic, because it sure as heck won’t fix the shower. Hooray for psychology!

For those of you who were not thinking “Hooray!” in connection with “psychology!”, hang in there. This’ll just take a nerdy minute.

First, attachment theory:

Attachment is basically the idea that a person’s approach to the world, their tendency to trust and participate and take risks, is molded by their very early experiences with caring relationships from people they need to be able to trust. The kind of relationships they build with parents, day care people, to some extent friends and the community—all of those relationship patterns set a course for how a person will probably respond to relationships in the future.

“Secure attachment” comes from parents or caregivers who are available, responsive, and supportive (yay!) and “securely attached” kids learn to balance emotions, create meaningful relationships, and securely handle stress.

And they obviously never have any problems, ever, for the rest of their lives.

Barnacles

These barnacles are very securely attached.

“Insecure attachment” styles are, of course, a different style of interaction. There’s 3 styles—insecure avoidant, insecure ambivalent/resistant, and insecure disorganized. The main gist of all of them is that they involve caregivers who, for a number of reasons, are not trustworthy and secure. So if a kid at a very young age learns that people she has to trust are pretty much checked out, emotionally inconsistent, or dangerous, then she won’t expect adults to respond to her needs, now or later.

This is the very short, I-am-not-a-developmental-researcher version. Before you go analyzing your own life to death, which, you know, is fun but kind of exhausting, take caution. Read a book. Go see an actual psychologist. And have a nice talk with your shower.

I know I did. (It was worth a try.)

Attachment Theory and Your Shower

In what ways does Elena feel attached to her shower? First we have to examine her past—what early experiences have shaped her view of showers, and water, and life and the universe? We’ll just focus on the first one today, shall we?

[Elena’s past experiences] The shower…sigh. I have always viewed shower-taking as a brief and necessary chore on the way to doing more important things in life. My trust of showers, but only quick ones, probably stems from competitions in my family to see who could get the most showering in before my sister used up all the hot water. I have had a few high points in my life of fast showering. (Personal record: going deep-sleep to out-the-door in 13 minutes including shower. Dang, I was good at this in college.) (It probably says bad things about me that I’m so proud of this.)

Also, I know that I live in a first world country because I expect my shower water to behave predictably, to provide a steady and reliable stream of reasonable-temperature water at my every whim. I recognize this is a first world expectation because last year I visited my parents in a gorgeous country whose first-world-dom did not extend to the showering experience. And that was okay. Really. In the midst of freezing concrete underfoot, using 4 minutes of hot water so the next person had some, and seeing your breath in the air because the walls weren’t insulated against winter—I said to myself, “Gee, it’s an adventure. This’ll be fun! It’s like camping!” (This was optimism by proxy. My camping experiences have never been like this.) My enthusiasm was drawn from a place of deep peace, a place that knew that somewhere, out there, were reliable showers that I would again use just as soon as I could stop shivering long enough to get on the airplane. My past experiences with showers gave me a secure enough attachment to instinctively trust all showers.

And, oh, what misplaced trust! The naiveté of youth…

It looks so innocent, doesn’t it?

[Elena’s current experience, in the third person to give distance to a painful topic] Elena’s current shower is has a deep and personal vendetta against her and her alone. While she has demonstrated her ability to handle freezing showers with relative aplomb, the shower pushes the temperature in the other direction. The shower, as trustworthiness goes, is inconsistent and occasionally explosive. There appears to be no predictable response between Elena’s behavior (turning the knobs, waiting a significant amount of time, shrieking inelegantly, etc.) and the shower’s actual water temperature. The water temperature ranges from so-hot-she-can’t-breathe-through-wall-of-steam to Whoops, ICE! But mostly it stays in the boiling-a-pot-of-lobsters-to-death range—an analogy which does not bode well for Elena’s role in it. She expects her water to be hot, but she does not routinely expect an attempt on her life. (Until recently.) This is not the sort of thing that encourages jumping out of bed like a happy frog, ready to face the day, not when first the little frog must cross a roiling lava pit. It leads to a certain hesitancy, and perhaps animosity, between frog and said lava pit.

Her roommates, on the other hand, have no problem with the shower. They think she’s inventing it. —Which she is NOT.— She has assured them repeatedly that there is nothing more awkwardly attention-getting for her than an involuntary scream at 7 a.m. for the benefit of all the neighbors. (Perhaps they think this is fun? …The shower has always been nice to them.) The roommates have had multiple kind but ultimately meaningless conversations with Elena about different methods of wooing the terrible shower beast. But Elena is not in the habit of wooing fire-breathing lava pits. She is in the habit of preserving her own skin. (Haha! Get it? …sigh…) It leaves her in the impossible place of needing the shower’s support to get clean in the established societal norm, and being unwilling to rely on the shower’s unpredictable behavior, hang all consequences. Her deteriorating mental state is only rivaled by her equally deteriorating value of cleanliness.

[Diagnosis] Based on this evidence, we determine that while early secure shower attachments have led Elena to a secure and apparently ridiculous trust in the reliability of all water sources, current experiences are quickly devolving into an insecure (disorganized?) attachment, leading Elena to never trust any showers, ever again.

Except, of course, that she knows that won’t be true. Elena is far too trusting of inanimate objects, due to most of them not actively trying to kill her. So she will continue on in her sad showering life, being routinely boiled to death like a pathetic little lobster, hoping that someday, somehow, the evil shower will come round and feel bad for how it has treated her. (She’s not holding her breath about it.) (The shower knows when you’re holding your breath…)

Sooo…what objects are you attaching to in insecure ways? (A question for your next dinner table conversation-starter.) Do you know anything actual about attachment theory? Please, please do enlighten us all after I’ve just misled us with this blog post. Leave comments below!

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7 thoughts on “Shower Problems: A Careful Misapplication of Attachment Theory

    • Hi Julie!
      Story writing might be an interesting way to use this… Anne of Green Gables is one character who comes to mind–lovable though she is, she doesn’t really seem to act in a way consistent with her early upbringing–not that I would fault her for it, because she’s great.
      I don’t think I should probably be trusted to to explain the attachment styles much further, but you can Google it to find about 12,100,000 results of questionable quality. Hah. No, but really, if you’re interested, attachment theory has lots of books on it (including some who question the validity of the theory, of course, as any good theory should have). Just beware of diagnosing yourself, which is fun, but iffy (since the whole theory is based on infant experiences, which you and I can’t remember, so…that’s why it’s a theory, and not a “law”.) Probably more than you wanted to know. But it’s interesting. I’d recommend learning on principle, since learning is great. 🙂 Thanks for reading!

  1. Hi Elena. Your Aunt Mary here. Poor shower-abused young lady. The only time I have known showers to be truly evil is when a toilet is flushed somewhere in the house and the shower responds with boil-her-alive temperatures. This only happened while living in Pennsylvania, where your cousins Rachel and Nathan resided with a complete lack of confidence in family members’ ability to remember not to flush while shower was occupied. For the PA showers, I developed some form of insecure attachment. However, I have become more secure toward showers in Kansas and Colorado, having no ill will to speak of them and finding myself thanking God every time I am in a shower for the unbelievable luxury of warm water for a full 20 minutes or so. (Afraid of condemnation if admitting to an even longer shower sometimes. Shhhh!) No person, mother or father or caregiver, is perfect and neither, of course, is a shower. Therefore, I am willing to forgive a shower involved in an unfortunate alliance last winter with repairmen who should have known better than to accidentally disconnect the hot water heater. In my innocence, I got into the shower in the wee hours of the morning in an awful hurry to not be late for a plane trip from Denver to Maryland. The water was bone-chilling cold. I don’t know how I survived it and even completed the task of cleanliness, but I did. I’ve let bygones be bygones. After all, all showers are imperfect and have fallen short, at some time or other, of the grace of good plumbing.
    Love,
    Aunt Mary

    • Well hi there! There is no condemnation coming from this quarter about shower length. And I won’t tell anyone. I’m so glad you’ve come to terms with showers and their fallibility. I think I have a ways to go.
      Plumbing is just… plumbing is difficult. I apparently can’t live with it, can’t live without it…haha.
      Thanks for stopping by!

  2. Two questions:

    Out of curiosity, do you consider shrieking inelegantly to be an actual attempt to influence the shower’s behavior?

    Have you ever considered the wonders of taking a bath?

    • Hah. Yes, and yes.
      1. When one has tried all other normal methods to elicit a predictable response from a man-made object (which should behave in the manner in which it was designed…), one begins to try less quantifiable methods. I’m not saying this is a highly logical approach…but then the man-made object already appears to be operating under similar methods. Fight fire with fire and…hot water with hot water? …Ooh, I haven’t tried that yet…
      2. Yes. Apparently my frustration is still not as great as my laziness and not-planning-ahead-ness. 😀
      But a good suggestion! Keep ’em coming!

  3. love what you got going here, Elena. I stopped receiving emails when you post, but I’ll be sure to get that fixed because your writing has never been contrived and will always be a form of laughter for me. I cannot think of an inanimate object that I have a strange attachment to at the moment– I think on it. 🙂

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